You Think I'm Crazy But...

whoa so it's been 4 months. that went by fast. i'm 21 now. lots has changed...but if you know me, then you know that.

I'm in the kind of mood where I know I should just go to sleep. But I keep sitting and thinking in front of the computer anyway. I'm not going to accomplish anything tonight. I'm just going to think of all the things I need to do, should be doing, have to do at some point.

Life has been really crazy. My engine blew up. It didn't literally blow up but that's the quickest way to get the point across. I need to get a new (used) car. I think I might finally break the Orsini/Ford tradition. I really want a Toyota Prius..Hybrid. So expensive. My car choose (chose?) a good time to die. Gas is like 76 dollars a gallon. Sucks for the bitches who are driving me around.

I accomplished some life long goals (my bucket list?) so far this year.
1.)I saw the Spice Girls in concert
2.)and saw Maria Bamford perform stand-up
3.) and to become a slut while still remaining a virgin (pretty much your average "Catholic" young woman)

I've read a lot of good books and saw some really great movies this year too. Invisible Monsters in the craziest most awesome book I've read in my lifetime. I always enjoyed Ordinary People immensely...the book more so than the movie but whatevs. Forgetting Sarah Marshall is a classic...or will be someday. I've never cried so hard about anything in my entire than the last scene in Dancer in the Dark. I didn't really like much of the movie but that last scene was a killer.

So much has happened. I just hope I can remember it in my head since it's not really appropriate to disclose on livejournal.

So I saw the SPICE GIRLS last night!!
fucking spice girls!
It was amazing.
I'll post some pictures when I get a chance.

hmm so i haven't written here in about a bazillion years.

i really like tunxis and i am doing well in all of my classes.
unfortunately, the majority of them do not apply to my major.
guess i should been advised about that two years ago.
but i can't even remember what my major was two years ago.
so i'll be a tunxis for the next 28 years.

i'm working at goodwill and macy's.
i still hate macy's but it's only seasonal.
goodwill is okay but some customers make me want to puke.

i love my friends.
i can't wait til i finally have more time to hang out.
i'm not really sure when that will be though.

i wish i could have a really good movie to watch whenever i want.
sometimes i get worried that they'll run out someday.

i started playing guitar hero because i guess i have to conform to society.
but i can admit that it's kinda fun...even though i really suck.

there are more things i could say but i don't really feel like sharing right now so i guess this is the end.

school is good. work is okay. i have no time for living life.

i hate not knowing what to do.

the end.

uhhh so yeah i had two days of school this week and that's it. it feels pretty strange. but i have work for the next three, possibly four days. that kinda puts a damper on things. need the money though....neeeed the money. i'm waiting for my spaghetti to be done. i love it. so my new favorite song is "don't forget to breathe" by beulah. it's pretty. i'm not motivated to do my homework for school at all. i can't even use correct grammar right now...that's how unmotivated i feel. anyway, i'm gonna go out tonight and have fun with my friends. and then maybe i'll be able to do some work tomorrow....but we'll see.

Hmmmmm so I don't know what to eat for breakfast. It's 2 in the afternoon though. I want to do something outside but I need to find someone else first. I'm obsessed with Michael Cera. I feel like I'm in 8th grade again. Anyway, everyone should watch Clark and Michael at www.clarkandmichael.com because it's the funniest stuff I've seen in a long time. Really. Believe me. Okay I'm done.

It's Russell's birthday and he's in Iraq. Not fun at all.

School started on Monday for me. Tunxis isn't that bad, I suppose. I can't even picture myself at a "real school" right now. It's hard enough there. It sucks because all my friends are out having fun right now and I have to go to bed so I can wake up tomorrow. It's pretty depressing. Anyway, my Goodwill co-worker Josh is in my Social Problems class and so is my friend Amanda. That made me happy. I have New Media tomorrow morning at 10 which I missed on Monday. I really didn't want to take a morning class but it was my only option after Italian was dropped. I'm still really sad about that. I really liked my Italian teacher. That's life.

We have a new manager at work. His name is Bill and he looks like Bill Gates. He's really quiet. I can hardly hear him actually. It's a lot better than Debbie though with her bitchy loud mouth and hooker red lipstick. She moved to Vegas where she belongs. Sam, one of the people I actually like at work, had his last day this week. I still have Mikayla though. It's not like I don't like everyone because I do but they're not exactly my friends either. Eh. Macy's sent me a postcard to come back to work for them but I hate that place and it's not like they would pay me more so they can suck it.

Some events have transpired this week which makes my lose my trust in people. I can't really discuss the details so this is just going to sound really vague. It just makes me upset that I have to watch what I say in front of everyone all the time. I've also realized that basically everyone is a hypocrite and I'm gonna have to deal with it. You can't trust anyone, that's what they say and I guess it really is true....but I keep on trusting people for some reason. At least I have my family.

Guess it's time for bed.....

I miss Russell soooooooo much. I saw his sister and aunt at work today and I had already been thinking about him. It sucks. I'm gonna send him a package this week and then maybe I feel better.

Anyway, Sam and I are going to see Super Bad tonight and I am SO EXCITED. I'm in love with Micheal Cera. He's amazing.

But I have to get ready now.......so I guess that's it for now.

I miss my stray kitten. A skunk scared it away. So I officially hate skunks. I'm disappointed in boys. I don't want to work tomorrow. I have poison ivy on my legs..but it's not so bad after I got pills. My head hurts. I just need to complain...and eat something...and sleep. Hopefully I'll have something more chipper to write about after the weekend.